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Pugedon Plastic Bottle Vending Machine

Absolutely brilliant.

Peter Sedlacik, Zuzu Galova - Lens Between Us

This... is pretty cute.

Sorry for posting late, but here's two pics. I feel like I should post something deep and opening. But... I don't have anything coming to mind as of right now. Other than... I love walking along the beach. It's so relaxing and inspiring. I also could see lightning in the distance and part of me was just awed.

Photo 1 from yesterday. I'm digging the lomo effect from using... my crappy camera phone haha.

Photo 2 from today.

Randomness

When they play dance songs from the 90's... and you know 2 of them max? Ya... definitely out of touch with pop culture. I knew most of the chill music they played in the background during the reception at least?

Whoahhh

I got to go to my second wedding this year. 2 down and 1 left. My bank account is missing some extra dollars cause of this but totes worth it. Super honored just to have been invited.

JK and EK.... cray cray. But I'm happy for them. I realized tho that I don't do well at GCF reunions. They remind me of a simple truth, I never belonged. Haha. But what is belonging? Having a big group of friends that you can always feel tight with whenever you see them? Maybe belong isn't the right word. Maybe I'm just being stupid??? Maybe I'm right. Maybe I just suck at big groups. Maybe I'm just too awkward. Maybe a lot of people just don't like me. Maybe it's a mix of everything? Ahhh.

But regardless, wheee for weddings. I could see J and E cheesing like crazy. Shoot, I know I was.

Real talk tho. Driving back an hour (cause the reception was freaking far) and jamming out to Shane and Shane, hearing your voice crack cause it's too high, windows down with the wind blowing into your face is so... amazing. I forgot to mention driving at night, which makes things more mystical. And all the while you remember God's greatness. You remember His amazingness. And you remember that you're His. And bam... peace.

Today's been a whoah day for me on so many levels. Whoah on driving and having someone relatively near for 2 hours haha. Eating lunch/catching up with an old roommate. Seeing a bunch of people who I haven't talked to and well, some of them I didn't talk to. Seeing two older people and actually having a semi-meaningful small talk. As in life, not blah blah blah, at least to me it was real talk. Seeing two people forever joined while here on this Earth. Watching a pro photographer at work, wondering if I could do that. But simply being reminded of God's greatness.

Congrats JEK! And thank you and God bless you. Not that either one of you have or will probably ever read this haha. But I'm smiling and will go to bed smiling knowing I saw something beautiful today. Praise be to God!

Whoah... so much God in this post. Random, I think I'm going to try to post 1 photo everyday for a month. People do it for a year... ya I don't think I can. Let's start with a month and go from there. Starting tomorrow...

Alcohol

I've got this weird interest in alcohol. I do think it's fascinating how people make it and stuff.

I had my first incredibly bad experience with alcohol. And honestly... so stupid. So I guess this is my public good-bye to alcohol.

Except for the small amount I get from communion at Trinity, since they use real wine. And I guess if people do champagne for toasting at a wedding, I'll drink that to be polite. And maybe the occasional tasting or something cause it's useful for cooking? Lol at these caveats.

But seriously... good bye. There's a beer in my fridge if anyone wants to drink it for me.

Rain Revisited

WHY IS IT SO AMAZINGGGGGGG?

Walking/running in the rain. Getting in caught in it is so... cathartic. It makes me feel like the world is copacetic. Sigh. So amazing. (Except for changing my shirt when I get back/wet clothes at work).

Until, it rains too much and my frisbee game is cancelled. Sigh. Too much of a good thing is a bad thing.

Also I thought of this a week ago, but life is about engaging not escaping. I thought it was so simple and deep. And life is also about trying. Dive head first (with prayer), and see what happens. What's the worst that can happen? Well maybe don't think about worst... but the most probably negative?

Sometimes... (Part 7 Final)

You want to drive forever but you can't cause you don't have gas and you have work the next day. So you settle for sitting and thinking until who knows when. I guess until my body says gg which will probably be soon. Lol dat working life tho.

Normal stream of thought posts with random lengths to resume from now on. Whenever they get written. Haha.

Sometimes... (Part 6)

You stare out your window and see a black figure walking across the street, and you bolt out. There's an awkward moment of hey... do you remember me? And then it runs over purring and nyahhing and running around your legs and you pet it, and it keeps on rubbing against you until you get inside. And there it redoubles it's efforts. :) :) :) You try to feed it an egg and fail (cause I read cats can eat eggs), but it's okay. You just sit there lost in the moment... You even set up the litter box, and dutifully clean it out once business is taken care of.

Then 45 minutes later... the magic is gone. And it wants out. You open the door and it chills outside before deciding it's done here and moves on.

Cats are stupid... sigh. So amazing, yet they destroy any affections without a second thought. But if it came back... I'd prob welcome it. Good bye :(

This is why dogs are the best. A puppy would not have done that to me. Haha.

Sometimes... (Part 5)

You're reading a book where every 3 pages you want to write a huge blog post about it, but instead you keep on reading cause it's gripping in an informative, inspiring, non-fictional kind of way. And you stare outside hoping to catch a glimpse of what you once considered a friend while listening to chill music and slowly keeping track of your thoughts.

Day 3 of not seeing my potential friend. Guess it's over :( Unless it randomly appears. And before anyone gets weird ideas, I'm talking about this stray cat that followed me one night and then visited me a couple times. Stole my heart, and even caused me to buy some cat stuff.

Sometimes... (Part 4)

You struggle to find the balance between enjoying life and crying over tragedies... but endorphins from frisbee (aka world's greatest sport) help a fair amount.

Day two of not seeing a friend that I thought I could spend the next couple years at least of my life with or at the very least the next month or so...

Sometimes... (part 2)

You open your door numerous times and go for a 30 minute walk. To catch a glimpse of something that's probably long since forgotten you.

And then you sit in front of a computer and type a stupid post like this.

Sometimes...

you can't believe what just happened.

Dat feeling

Of your heart thumping, millions of thoughts racing through my mind like a whirlwind.

Life, crazy business at work, life, crazy business, life. LIFE. Bahh.

On the verge of giddiness and confusion and the world spins. And nothing gets done in my head. Except my work. Cause I want to keep my job. haha.

Homeless

The very real fear that my lease ends at the end of July, and I don't have any options for living nor do I have another job yet, so I might be homeless...

Dang...

Well I guess I can move home... bleh

Tears

People have two types of faces.. light and dark. Haha. I would like to believe this but that's bogus. We are multi-faceted on so many levels, to try to draw a line of light and dark is foolish. Oh anime, you're wrong.

But this show made tears flow freely. A cartoon right? Making me cry? But there is a level of truth in this show. It mentions how it's incredibly scary to longer be affected by death. And for me crying was a relief... I'm still human. For those of you still laughing at the fact that I cried to an anime... trust me. When you see blatant bigotry that ends in murder of children and it hauntingly resembles reality, you can't help but cry. Cause it's happened, and it continues to happen. All around the world people are dying. War is occurring, people fight, argue, steal, kidnap, lie, murder. It's heart breaking, it's ridiculously disturbing.

Yet we are so desensitized. We will hear on the news about something and immediately jump back to facebook. Maybe we share the article as a way of saying hey look at this? But then what happens? Greater awareness that... does not lead to action? People like me writing bitter articles on their blogs? Or perhaps we are swept up in the mob mentality, let's have more war. Let's bring punishment. Death to those who hurt us...

Sigh... but it's scary guys. We love our movies that glorify violence, but violence is really scary. A part of me really wants to get into a fight, just to see what will happen. Will I get wrecked? Will I wreck? Will it be my drug trip as adrenaline pours in, as I feel the satisfaction of causing pain? Will I cringe in fear after seeing what I've done? Will I just be knocked out in the first blow?

I dunno... all I know is I'm very much afraid of humanity and very much in love with it.

All of this and many thoughts and emotions swirl around and around as I listened to this song on repeat for two hours. Hauntingly beautiful. In the Hobbit, there exists a common enemy, a common goal (for the most part). I guess, my only real goal belongs to Christ. But it'd be so much easier if there was a clearer delineation, a more united front. If something as clear cut as violence was approved.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2fngvQS_PmQ

Note: I got to see some of my close friends from Mexico this past Saturday... ugh. The feels. And I attended my first wedding of friends ever. It was anti-climactic, but part of it is probably because I missed the ceremony due to the amazing nova traffic of a one hour drive turning in to 2.5 hours.