Small Group

I've realized small group is crucial while I was overseas. (Completely didn't touch on spiritualnessnessness in my previous post)

You need community. Period end of story. If you are a Christian, not nominal, and you don't take seeking community seriously, then you are a fool. I might feel bad saying it to your face, but I will say it. If you aren't actively seeking community, or at least trying to be involved in community... you are on a train wreck towards disaster. And not a fake community where you act happy or a certain way. A community where you can be you. In your downs struggling with sin or whatever comes your way, and in your ups when all you can do is help but praise the Lord in pure joy. Maybe not in all the details, cause trust takes time, but at least share some.

Please... if you haven't found one or committed to one, please do so. You won't find perfection of any sort. Don't expect it. Recognize the fact that you will have to reach out. You will have to try. You will be hurt as some people don't seem to reciprocate or they do something that offends you. But continue... of course for Christ ultimately, but for your own soul as well.

Being bereft of community took it's toll on me while I was abroad. I need something to root me because... by myself I drift all too easily away from God. He's still on my mind, but not as powerfully. He becomes less a reason for my actions, and more just an abstract thing... why is it so easy? Cause I am weak. I am not strong. I am not a pillar. I am weak, but it's okay. I'd rather recognize that and find brothers and sisters than try to live alone anyways.

That being said, my small group leader is more or less how I would like to be at some point. Smart, astute memory. Well versed in the Bible and the world. He was quoting Shakespeare at me haha during a lunch conversation, and then I realized we even had the same views about the end haha. If worst comes to worst when we get old, we'll go to some hostile nation, carry Bibles and preach God's word till, well you know we get killed. Funny because our wave thoughts are similar in many ways, but I'm more emotional than him. He's got an interesting life story I feel like tho. One day, I'll uncover it and just spend times reflecting on it. Why? Cause there are things to learn from every persons life.

Haha. But speaking of my leader, he also had the same issue I had with the news. And he said he only reads local news because there he can make a difference. To be honest... I feel like there's something underlying that decision, which is incorrect. But who am I to call him out right?

Feeling helpless is not necessarily a bad thing. It forces you to turn to God. An argument could be made here about God just being convenient or not having a true faith or whatever, but I do believe it's true. We love feeling in control, and we'll do almost anything to preserve it.

Today I found a nice analogy to describe myself. I currently feel like a puppy haha. Why? Well... too bad don't feel like sharing. But I feel like a puppy.

Happy Monday!