Birdy

Overwhelming the feels. She's so amazing. Sigh.

I think there's an emotional/mental/physical limit that I am fast approaching... Emotionally and mentally due to quite possibly some of the biggest decisions I've made in recent years/maybe my life? Okay, life might be a stretch but at the very least it feels that way. Physically cause either I'm not sleeping well or maybe I should sleep more, but either way my body is like yoooo...zzz...

Ugh.

Small update. I was asked this past Monday (3 days ago) to consider serving in Japan for a year. From September to July, and the missionary couple said if I wanted to stay longer they'd love it. Well I guess as long as they like me, right?

Aka I have less than a week to decide in order to give enough time to quit my company. Aka so many life decisions on hold? Aka... testing my character? Aka... so befuddled. Ugh.

My life could be a drama for the past two months says a friend.

My Manic Merling Menagerie filled with Many Marklings Mucking Mayhem Marvelously.
Except there's only one Markling. Lolol. Making myself laugh is a healthy skill I think.

So many things that I weigh in my mind. And ultimately I just sorta stare into space asking God for clarity. The person who told me about the opportunity prayed for me and was like God would you speak to him through Your Word and his dreams. And I'm like dude... God if you spoke to me in my dreams, that'd be pretty cool and helpful and simple and amazing and a blessing. It's never happened to me before, and now would be a pretty cool time for it to happen. Just saying in a human way that might be blaspheming on some level. Forgive me.