Uncleanliness

It's interesting how many laws are written in the Old Testament about cleanliness. Some that seem serious and some that seem trivial in our eyes. But it seems like a very public, a very community thing. For better or worse. How could it be worse? Cause not everyone is going to be loving or forgiving or whatever you want to fill in. Yet, it's beautiful. There is accountability, there is real community. There is real desire for holiness, for God although... maybe legalistic?

This is the first time this has really hit me while reading Deuteronomy. So if you've read this before or made this observation please forgive me. But having to go out of the city at those times for the day or whatever period of time because you have been deemed unclean, that's crazy if you really think about it. At least to me it is. Of course not everyone will know the reason you have to leave cause it could have been for any number of things, but I wonder do you walk out in the middle of the street? Darting from shadow to shadow? Haha.

Or not just leaving the community, but covering your poop in a certain manner. So many different things regulated/thought about. Almost every action must be pre-meditated. Gosh... must have been hard to live yolo haha.

A Godly community... like a real Godly one. Crazy to imagine. Like crazy in a wow, I wonder what it's like way. Heaven scares and excites me on so many levels. Sigh this wedding man was all like God saying to me, yo remember Me. Love Me. Serve Me. Follow Me. Worship Me. And I'm like whoah... when did my focus shift? Gottemz. Let me truly treasure this gift of life, in a good and a pleasing way. A super aha moment... as I forgot my mom's bday even though I made it part of my password to remember it... gg. I just suck with bdays. If I forgot yours, it's nothing personal.

I also was reminded that there are free online classes I want to take. Time to seize the day.

And I just realized... maybe I will just move to the Philippines one day. If all else fails, I could just work from there for SNL and still get paid a USA salary. Work night shifts and hate my life, but explore Asia. You can get tickets from there to Korea for less $100!! I would be Asia master within a year. And then I'd have burnout from night shift haha. And come back to the USA.

Pics to be uploaded... eventually. I think I give up on this pic a day thing. Maybe after I move and things get finalized. Ahhh. I'm moving today. Ahh I still don't have a place to live. Ahhh, my heart goes through so many ups and downs... I wonder what the breaking point is. Or maybe there isn't a breaking point? I know not.